For What, What For?

I looked at him and smiled...
who am I smiling for?

Chuckling at their jokes...
who am I laughing for?

Sympathizing her troubles...
who am I crying for?

For her, for him?
for this and for them?

or simply...

for me?

I look into these hands of mines
and wonder what I've accomplished.
Hopes I've Revived, purposes I've Strived
have all but diminished.

I gaze at the sky,
as I ponder why,
why I no longer ponder
what is smile, laugh, or cry...

By and by...bye...and bye?